I'm 20 years old and I just decided to take a year off university so I could pursue something that I actually wanted to do. I've made a bunch of resolutions (well mentally I have) and I wanted to see how many I would fail. So I guess I created this blog (the latest, in an untold number neglected blogs) to try and document what's going on.
At the moment, I want to be a makeup artist, but I have no driver's license and haven't completed my makeup course or held a job in retail. I do work a less than great job at a take away pizza shop, where I get paid less than minimum wage and still feel bad about the prospect of quitting.
I am incapable of saving money, I've been working consistently for the last year and have no money in my savings. In fact I'm proud of myself for getting paid on Monday and now on Thursday having fifty dollars left.
I probably need professional help, but hate the idea of going to a counsellor, I have crippling anxiety about almost everything and sometimes I feel such intense pangs of self hatred that it blindsides me.
But, I have an amazing boyfriend and an equally great best friend and I want to do something with my life. I'm sick of letting my fear take over my ambitions. I really want to fight for my ambitions even if I don't always feel like I have a leg to stand on.
So over the next year I want to:
start working in the makeup industry.
get into Shape.
bring my skin to the best it's ever been.
grow out my hair and then cut and colour it.
get my driver's license.
Anyway, Until next time.
Mary Jocelyn Rose.
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